Monday 21 July 2014

FIRST DOUBT YOUR DOUBTS BEFORE YOU DOUBT YOUR FAITH

And to think I was beginning to lose hope. How silly of me, how could I even think about giving up. I am too blessed to be stressed. My Heavenly Father is with me and stands beside me. He will always be with me and I choose to stand by His side and let Him lead the way.

"Lift up your heart and rejoice, for the hour of your mission is come; and your tongue shall be loosed, and you shall declare aglad tidings of great joy unto this generation."


Doctrine & Covenants 31:3 

So yesterday I met with President and he asked me "is there anything you want to say before I submit your papers?" I answered with a smile "I am so ready, let's do this!". And so there you have it, my papers are in, and now THE WAITING GAME begins! Like actually... Hahaha. And it is about time I say! A mission is something that I have wanted to do since before I can remember. I do remember though, sitting in Primary singing "I Hope They Call Me On A Mission" and imagining what it would be like when my time finally comes and I am called to serve. I'll be honest with you though, as I grew up and became a teenager my desire became hazy. I won't say that I lost it, but it was fading away. Slowly. High school is a distant memory now but I am grateful for those dark times in my life because now I know what I truly want after tasting the bad fruit, I choose the good. Thankfully, that phase didn't last long and my desire was back and in full force. Although I was unsure how to get there. But now I am well and truly on the path to serve. I am where I want to be. I am here, waiting to receive my mission call and I wouldn't have it any other way. I want to cry, tears of happiness, I am so grateful to be able to go out and share the Gospel with others. The Gospel is my everlasting happiness and I hope everybody can feel the joy that I feel when I embrace it. I cannot wait to see that big white envelope with my call inside. I am going to hug it so tight! Hahaha. Well goodbye for now, not forever.

Sister Loli ;-)

Wednesday 2 July 2014

ITS JUST ONE OF THEM DAYS

Just when I thought everything was done, submitted and gone. And all I had to do was wait... I was wrong. I called my Stake President this morning (who I love to bits!!!) because he needed to speak with me. He told me that there a few things missing from my papers and that once they are complete we will submit. I guess that’s what I get for counting my chickens before they hatch right? I’ve been crying all morning, I just want to go home and cry my little eyes out. But I can’t. I need to stay here at work and stick it out. This is another test or trial and once I overcome it I’ll look back at this and laugh (I think, well I hope). I guess my Father in Heaven knows that I have a lot to work on before I go out preaching the Gospel to the world huh? I know that the main lesson I will learn from this is patience -- and boy, that is something I need to learn! Patience is something that I lack, probably because I’m a bit of a brat and never really have to wait for anything. Heavenly Father knows me better than I know myself. I’m just really upset… So for now, I’m just going to cry – cry, pray and listen to “The Moleni Brothers”. That’s all you can do right? I don’t want to talk to anyone or anyone to talk to me because I’m so annoyed and I don’t want to snap. I’m irritated, upset, angry, sad, depressed, hating everything, mad, not a happy camper, annoyed, infuriated and lost. Confused? I want to serve and I want to serve now. I want to be out there on the field sharing the one thing in the whole world that makes me truly happy. I don’t want to be here anymore… doing nothing.
Just something I should always remember...
Okay. So the first half of my blog was a bit of a downer. But after writing that and re-reading what I wrote I think I will change the tone on that. You know what they say, “Let go and let God”. So that is exactly what I am going to do. I’m going to wipe my tears away, stop complaining, keep smiling and share the Gospel right here and right now – because I don’t need to be set apart as a full-time missionary to share the Gospel. I can share it right now - starting right now! Let’s do this, no more tears. I've got work to do.

Sister Loli ;-)

Tuesday 1 July 2014

SISTERS ARE DOING IT FOR THEMSELVES

Travelling & Welfare Sisters:
Ieremia, Valencia, Nonutunu & Clarke at Sauniatu.
Sister Arlette Hart, left, and Sister Irene Eldridge, right, served in the Western States Mission from 1937 to 1939.




“Through your devoted service and willing sacrifice, your mission will become holy ground to you.” —Elder W. Christopher Waddell of the Seventy