¨I have the biggest headache right now because I can´t stop
crying. I just finished talking to everyone via Skype. I don´t think I´ve ever
lost someone this close to me before. My heart is honestly so broken right now.
It´s really weird because the last time we spoke was the day before I left for
my mission. Our Heavenly Father really does know ALL things because on Saturday
I had already said goodbye to you. But on Monday before I was set apart to be a
missionary I had a feeling that I wanted to say goodbye again so I called Sina
to talk to you and she told me she was at the hospital with you because
something happened and you needed a check-up. So I told Aso that I needed to
see you ASAP! When I get there I say ¨are you serious? What happened?¨ and you
just smile, then I say ¨whos gonna look after you now? I wont be here for 18
months. Gosh!¨and you just laugh and say ¨dont worry, I´m okay¨. Always so
humble Eddie, I miss you so much! Then you ask how I feel about coming here to
El Salvador and if I´m scared. And don´t talk to any MS13 members. LOL! Too
late, jokes...
I honesly feel super gypped right now that you won´t be
there when I get home, but I´m also so grateful because I know that you´ll be
here watching over me in this dangerous country, God knew that I needed you
here. Shucks!!! This is super weird and doesn´t feel real at all. Who would´ve
ever thought that I´d be sitting here writing a message for your funeral. I
can´t stop bawling, this sucks BIG TIME!! I hate this, but I know that God is
our LOVING Heavenly Father and that He has created a plan for us. He loves us
more than we will ever know, more than we could ever understand. Death sucks,
but its an important part of this plan. But death is NOT the end. It is the
hardest part, but it is NOT the end. We can rejoice in this knowledge. Our
loving Heavenly Father will help us through it - ALWAYS! He NEVER gives us
trials we cannot overcome with His help. Through the Atonement of Jesus Christ
our Saviour, Redeemer and brother we will be strengthened. All we need to do is
go to Him. We must have faith in His name, faith in Him. I know that through
the Gospel of Jesus Christ we can be with our families for eternity! I know
this with my whole heart. Families can be together forever, through Heavenly
Father´s plan. I wouldn´t be out here if I didn´t believe it. If it wasn´t real
then these 18 months would be a waste of time. I know that I will see you again
so that you can listen to my gay stories like always and then wait for me to
finish so you can lecture me hahaha. You and Mannia, always. I have so much to
say but maybe I shouldn´t share everything LOL. It can wait for when we meet
again at Jesus´ feet.
I am so grateful for the memories that I have of us because
I know that I can think of them and feel like you´re with me. Like the time
when Luaina made all us kids try and do an add for her magic muffins hahaha.
Before Youtube huh? LOL. Ah I miss you! I am BLESSED far beyond measure to have
had a brother like you to share my 23 years of life with. You wil NEVER be
forgotten, I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!! See you on the flip side Vato! hahaha. I´m
doing this for us - FAMILIA! LOL. I love you, Te quiero mucho!!!
Seta, Taula'i, Elain, Lia, SJ and Sina: Be strong, Eddie wouldn´t want you
to be sad. He is so loving and will always be remembered for the love that he
had for EVERYONE! Smile because this is not the end, its only the beginning. He
is waiting for us on the other side. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH... SEE YOU IN
18!!!
FAMILIES ARE TOGETHER FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!
Hermana Esther Loli xoxoxo¨
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